Yeller:)
I'm officially out of public schools and am being home schooled. Yes, I will miss all of my friends (Tear:_[), but I'll be able to raise Kaidyn and not have to worry about putting him in daycare... until he can talk that is. I'm doing a online highschool that is pretty flexible and really really cheap. I should start it tomorrow, but I'm re-doing all the credits that I failed in my public school, so wish me luck!
Oh, I think I forgot to blog this the other day, but Tyler and I got married on January 13th. That's one hell of a lucky number right? But this was just a court house wedding and sometime next year we're hoping to be able to do it ''the right way.'' It's still kind of weird to write and say my name as Amber Dalton, but my momma told me that it'll soon become as natuarl as my now maiden name was. I don't have to worry about being asked if I'm kin to Elvis, now it's gonna be which branch of Dalton's and running back the family tree (That I don't know!!), but it'll be ok. It somehow always is:)
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Marriage
Hellllo:)
I am a newly wed. Woooo! Lol.
Everyone that I know said that life would be different after you get married, but to be honest, it feels the same except for the fact that my last name is now Dalton and there's a ring on my left hand. Now that I'm married, I don't have to worry about missing too much school or anything of that sort.
It sucks that I'm now emancipated and I have to do all the ''grown up'' things for myself. It's not just calling and setting up appointments for Kaidyn (Who's going to be here in less than 5 weeks!! It'll be 4 weeks Tuesday!!), I have to make my own appointments and make all of my own medical decisions for myself. My mother is burden free of me pertaining to basically anything and everything that I have to do. Now. it's on my husband.
As of now, Tyler and I are still living with my mom and will be until we can find a place that's cheap enough for us to afford. We're working with 1 paycheck on our bills and Tyler's fines and court costs and probation. I know that this isn't going to be easy, never thought that it was going to be. Would I recommend getting married at 16 to anyone else? No I would not. Why? Because there's so much life left to live and you never know what's going to happen between now and the time you're 20. Just take it easy.
I am a newly wed. Woooo! Lol.
Everyone that I know said that life would be different after you get married, but to be honest, it feels the same except for the fact that my last name is now Dalton and there's a ring on my left hand. Now that I'm married, I don't have to worry about missing too much school or anything of that sort.
It sucks that I'm now emancipated and I have to do all the ''grown up'' things for myself. It's not just calling and setting up appointments for Kaidyn (Who's going to be here in less than 5 weeks!! It'll be 4 weeks Tuesday!!), I have to make my own appointments and make all of my own medical decisions for myself. My mother is burden free of me pertaining to basically anything and everything that I have to do. Now. it's on my husband.
As of now, Tyler and I are still living with my mom and will be until we can find a place that's cheap enough for us to afford. We're working with 1 paycheck on our bills and Tyler's fines and court costs and probation. I know that this isn't going to be easy, never thought that it was going to be. Would I recommend getting married at 16 to anyone else? No I would not. Why? Because there's so much life left to live and you never know what's going to happen between now and the time you're 20. Just take it easy.
Friday, January 7, 2011
The News.
Hi:)
So, it's official. The 19th of January I will be having my cervix checked that day and then every week until my due date... or until it opens. Oh, and I reckon on the 12th I'm gonna be getting married to Tyler Allen Dalton:) What's even better is we're having a court house wedding, but sometime next year we're going to have a actual wedding and Kaidyn's going to be involved with it.
I've been thinking about what I'm going to post when Kaidyn gets here, and it gets complicated. Everyone knows that it's labor, bottles and diapers with some waking up in the middle of the night, and I was thinking about posting how many times I get up at night and just how little sleep you actually get with a child.
Keep in mind that this blog is to keep you from having a kid yourself, because if I knew what carrying this child was like, I would've thought way longer and way harder before I did half of what I've done. Hunny, these peaches have no cream.
So, it's official. The 19th of January I will be having my cervix checked that day and then every week until my due date... or until it opens. Oh, and I reckon on the 12th I'm gonna be getting married to Tyler Allen Dalton:) What's even better is we're having a court house wedding, but sometime next year we're going to have a actual wedding and Kaidyn's going to be involved with it.
I've been thinking about what I'm going to post when Kaidyn gets here, and it gets complicated. Everyone knows that it's labor, bottles and diapers with some waking up in the middle of the night, and I was thinking about posting how many times I get up at night and just how little sleep you actually get with a child.
Keep in mind that this blog is to keep you from having a kid yourself, because if I knew what carrying this child was like, I would've thought way longer and way harder before I did half of what I've done. Hunny, these peaches have no cream.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
What's Made Me Hard Headed..
I was oh so blessed to have my parents stay together until I was 11 years old. What a bunch of hell that was. I thought I was a daddy's girl when this split came, but a year later I found out that I really wasn't when my dad got remarried to a woman with 3 other children and I became his last priority. That's pretty sad to say huh? He can't afford $35 a week and the only time I talk to him is when I call him. In the past year, I believe I have seen my father twice. When he walked out, by God he walked out I reckon.
My mom on the other hand, she dealt with a son who was in and out of jail and who is now in prison, and a quieter, more sneakier daughter. Me and my mom have had a very open relationship, and I do mean very open. I would say that my mom is my biggest hero, and my very best friend. She supported a child on her own with a rinky-dink minimum wage job, barley making ends meet. Somehow she accomplished it.
I don't remember what it's like to be around my dad. I don't know what it's like to have a sibling around all the time. In my life, all I really know is people popping in and out for various stretches of time, and no father either. Do I feel sad because of this? Hell no I don't.
If anything, all of these things wouldn't have made me into the person that I am today, and I would be vulnerable enough to think that when someone waltzes into your life their going to stay. Instead, I let them walk right on in, and expect them to walk right back out at any moment. I don't expect anyone to hold to their word too much either, but I've never really done it come to think of it...
It may not sound like it, but I've had a rough childhood. I would describe it more, but I don't remember it that much. Maybe it's a good thing that I don't, maybe it isn't. Who knows?
My mom on the other hand, she dealt with a son who was in and out of jail and who is now in prison, and a quieter, more sneakier daughter. Me and my mom have had a very open relationship, and I do mean very open. I would say that my mom is my biggest hero, and my very best friend. She supported a child on her own with a rinky-dink minimum wage job, barley making ends meet. Somehow she accomplished it.
I don't remember what it's like to be around my dad. I don't know what it's like to have a sibling around all the time. In my life, all I really know is people popping in and out for various stretches of time, and no father either. Do I feel sad because of this? Hell no I don't.
If anything, all of these things wouldn't have made me into the person that I am today, and I would be vulnerable enough to think that when someone waltzes into your life their going to stay. Instead, I let them walk right on in, and expect them to walk right back out at any moment. I don't expect anyone to hold to their word too much either, but I've never really done it come to think of it...
It may not sound like it, but I've had a rough childhood. I would describe it more, but I don't remember it that much. Maybe it's a good thing that I don't, maybe it isn't. Who knows?
Monday, January 3, 2011
eDuCaTioN aND FRieNDS
Hellur:)
34 weeks pregnant and I know that I'm not going to finish my Junior year of High School, I have now came to the decision that I'm going to get my GED so that I can pursue my life long dream. I know this isn't what my family wants, but it's what I feel like I have to do. My baby's daddy Tyler, or my soon to be husband on the 12th of January, and I have discussed me going back to school and every other option there is out there and we feel as if daycare is too pricey and that we don't want our child attending it until he has a very very VERY good vocabulary under his belt. You hear too many bizarre things happening at day cares and I really don't need someone else raising my child some other way than my way.
I know that I should return, but I made a decision to lay down, and so now I have to make sacrifices and give up things that matter the most to me, and along with that come the matter of friends. Alot of people can me misleading and fake, as I have learned the hard way of course, which leaves you to pick out the good seeds from the bad. As I have learned the hard way of doing this too, you have to make decisions based on if that's someone that you want to have around your child. It's not about how cool that person is, or if their wearing today's fashions or not, but if that's going to be the type of person to ditch you because you can't go to Friday night's party because you have your baby, or if when your child's older and starts talking, if their going to be respectful enough to choose a better vocabulary when he or she is around.
It's been very hard for me to do this because I was the girl who partied, I was the girl who wore all of the name brand things, and then all of a sudden, I'm the one who has to look at life through what seems to be an adults eyes. All of things that you think matter so much when you're a teen, doesn't matter so much when you're a parent, when you have to grow up because you're growing a new life inside of you. You have to look at what's going to be the best for you and your child from the moment that you know that he or she is coming and on. It's a huge change, and if I could have my childhood back, don't think I wouldn't take it back for one second. But now, I wouldn't take anything over my child that will be here soon.
34 weeks pregnant and I know that I'm not going to finish my Junior year of High School, I have now came to the decision that I'm going to get my GED so that I can pursue my life long dream. I know this isn't what my family wants, but it's what I feel like I have to do. My baby's daddy Tyler, or my soon to be husband on the 12th of January, and I have discussed me going back to school and every other option there is out there and we feel as if daycare is too pricey and that we don't want our child attending it until he has a very very VERY good vocabulary under his belt. You hear too many bizarre things happening at day cares and I really don't need someone else raising my child some other way than my way.
I know that I should return, but I made a decision to lay down, and so now I have to make sacrifices and give up things that matter the most to me, and along with that come the matter of friends. Alot of people can me misleading and fake, as I have learned the hard way of course, which leaves you to pick out the good seeds from the bad. As I have learned the hard way of doing this too, you have to make decisions based on if that's someone that you want to have around your child. It's not about how cool that person is, or if their wearing today's fashions or not, but if that's going to be the type of person to ditch you because you can't go to Friday night's party because you have your baby, or if when your child's older and starts talking, if their going to be respectful enough to choose a better vocabulary when he or she is around.
It's been very hard for me to do this because I was the girl who partied, I was the girl who wore all of the name brand things, and then all of a sudden, I'm the one who has to look at life through what seems to be an adults eyes. All of things that you think matter so much when you're a teen, doesn't matter so much when you're a parent, when you have to grow up because you're growing a new life inside of you. You have to look at what's going to be the best for you and your child from the moment that you know that he or she is coming and on. It's a huge change, and if I could have my childhood back, don't think I wouldn't take it back for one second. But now, I wouldn't take anything over my child that will be here soon.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Getting DeeepXD
Ollo:)
25 weeks into my pregnancy my doctor tells me that my baby isn't growing and that I have low amniotic fluid, as this being my first pregnancy, this scared the holy hell out of me. Questions that sounded like they was coming from Albert Einstein was flying out of me but I was told that there was nothing that I could really do, it was simply something my body produced and for some reason wasn't. The only thing that I could do was eat and drink more, so from that day on I ate everything that wasn't nailed down to the table and had doctors appointment every single week until I was 30 weeks and they told me that my baby was where he needed to be. That's been the scariest thing so far... Except the thought of labor and afterwards.
This is something that I thought that could never happen to me. I would have the perfect pregnancy and everything would be peaches and cream, but it wasn't. You never really think that something that seems so impossible could happen to you, but it does, it happens to everyone. Personally I think that's the part that everyone over looks is that bad things happen to everyone everyday, not just because they have bad luck. To me, bad luck is something that we assume, that we create in our mind and that it's not really real.
Maybe that's something else to ponder on for a while....
25 weeks into my pregnancy my doctor tells me that my baby isn't growing and that I have low amniotic fluid, as this being my first pregnancy, this scared the holy hell out of me. Questions that sounded like they was coming from Albert Einstein was flying out of me but I was told that there was nothing that I could really do, it was simply something my body produced and for some reason wasn't. The only thing that I could do was eat and drink more, so from that day on I ate everything that wasn't nailed down to the table and had doctors appointment every single week until I was 30 weeks and they told me that my baby was where he needed to be. That's been the scariest thing so far... Except the thought of labor and afterwards.
This is something that I thought that could never happen to me. I would have the perfect pregnancy and everything would be peaches and cream, but it wasn't. You never really think that something that seems so impossible could happen to you, but it does, it happens to everyone. Personally I think that's the part that everyone over looks is that bad things happen to everyone everyday, not just because they have bad luck. To me, bad luck is something that we assume, that we create in our mind and that it's not really real.
Maybe that's something else to ponder on for a while....
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